Blessed

Ok, so I have to say that I am pretty disappointed in myself for not updating my blog very often this year. Mostly because this is my only form of journaling that I do, I have limited the record of my feelings and events that have occurred during this past year, and that was the whole point of my blog.

But today I am feeling very blessed, and was contemplating the many wonderful things that have happened in the last little while that have proven my Heavenly Father knows me and cares about what is going on and how I am doing, and that I recognize His hand in my life.

First of all Juston has been working at Ernst & Young in San Jose, since October while I have been finishing up my semester at Cuesta here in San Luis Obispo. He has been coming home on the weekends, and that has been nice, but it never is enough time and it is ALWAYS hard to say goodbye when he leaves on Sunday night. Not just for me, but especially for the girls. They don't understand why their dad has to live somewhere else and why he's not been there to tuck them in at night. I am truly grateful for the technology that allows us to communicate with him directly as if he were here, that in times past would have been impossible.  It is a great blessing to have SKYPE and the girls be able to have their dad read them a book from his office while they are in bed and see the pages as he is reading.

I am also feeling a little bit anxious, because after living in SLO for most of my life, and ALL of my married life, for the first time we are all relocating a different place, a big city. I would be lying if I said it was anything but scary to me. Being in a small town is so comfortable, its so easy to live here when you know everyone, and so many people care about you. However, I find comfort in knowing that wherever I am, I put my life in the Lord's hands and ask that he will allow me to do the best I can with what I have been given. I also know that moving to San Jose is the right thing for us to do. It is what is necessary for my family to be together and grow. 

I am blessed because, although I was not accepted to either Cal Poly or San Jose State for this past fall, I was accepted to San Jose State for this upcoming spring 2011 semester into the Nutritional Science program. It is amazing to me, that for the last 3 years the CSU system has not had ANY transfer admissions for Spring semesters, but the ONE year I happen to stumble upon the opening I am admitted and the process so far has been quite smooth. I have come to understand and it has been reiterated in my life that sometimes the plans that we have for ourselves are not always in conjunction with our Heavenly Father's plan for us. The idea is to be able to submit to His plan when we see that we are veering from His path and correct ourselves by being humble enough to know that we were going in the wrong direction. For me this consisted mostly of realizing that I was pushing too hard to go to a school and live in a place that I was comfortable. What kind of person would I be if I don't allow myself to grow and be outside my comfort zone.
 
This is the time of year I love! And it allows me to reflect on all of the wonderful things that have gone on. I am blessed to have a husband who loves me, and has a job that can provide for our family's needs, children to adore and who bring so much joy into my life, knowledge to gain and a university I can attend to earn my degree,  a place to sleep and call home, and a Savior who died for me and made it possible for me to be healed from past pain.

I am blessed.